Hello peoples. Yesterday went wonderfully, because I only ate 235 calories exactly, but today was horrible. I don't even know how many calories I ate, an it's killing me, - though I did drink some salt water which forced me to throw some of it up. But I'm still extremely upset with myself, because i know it was at least over 1,500 calories, and god, is that such a horrible fact to know. I'm planning on keeping it under 200 calories tomorrow, but i don't know how that will go, because my sister is noticing how much I'm not eating, and she is getting upset with me. So is my counselor - actually, she was yelling at me today because i "needed" to eat at least 2,000 calories, but I just grit my teeth and listened to her bullshit.
Also, my brother-in-law yelled at me and asked me if I wanted to see ribs, and I just lied and said no. I guess there's a lot of yelling in my life, hm? My anxieties don't deal with it well either. I usually end up having panic attacks when someone yells at me, due to my father being an asshole in general, but he isn't here anymore. He's in jail. You might be asking why, but I'll save that for some other time.
I guess this is goodbye for now, so toodles, my lovelies!!
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